szeptember, 2010

The stream of information is so quick and mystical nowadays, that we might as well be satisfied. Of course it is incomplete and often not selective. This somehow realizes our great wandering on Earth, it is a metaphore for the wandering-theory. But it’s painful that due to human nature and underdevelopment, we don’t prefer connections, but we turn against each other with each other’s conscious…..It is presumable, that artists acknowledge the superhuman nature of intellectual knowledge, as unity, so I believe, that this thought can be tranfered to other human beings or fellow workers in certain moments of quality. With this, they move from each other only in time. Therefore, the only question left is mutual acceptance, which is mainly up to sense of rhytm.

In the beginning we were wandering around and around, we were flying, floating. We were looking for the so much desired memory. Then we found it. We are able to do things, then we can bequeath them. Therefore we get separeted unintentionally, of course it felt good, that we were being listened to, and somebody was interested in our work. I think we should make efforts to respect each other’s great existence. Things somehow are always the same. Artists are always mediators, mediums. Remembering the wandering, we should even out huge differences ………….. It is funny to write titles below pictures, too. In case of a panel picture, it is even morbid. Well, it is a little bit witty though, but I have wondered many times, that it all comes from some tradition of art history, and this is also something related to existence. It surely must be dated. Apart from particular historical works of art, I think it’s unnecessary to give pictures names, because it doesn’t change the message, but it diverts the attention of the recipients while they are watching it, besides it is only a drag for the artist as well. / In case of other kinds of works of art we need an explanation, a title, so a universal message can be created. In this case, giving titles cannot be a question./

Before exhibitions I enjoy the excitement of not knowing what I will experience, I just have an idea about it, and I have my heart in my stomach. I have never been at the “entrance” of an exhibition hall without being overcome by this feeling. The best is when I am alone with the pictures. That is a real blood tranfusion. I believe that we must let the stream flow freely, so that one is constantly inspired. The spectator is the recipient. Therefore we can say that the exhibition hall is the church itself. /Luckily there are nicely built ones as well. / . The spectator evaluates, so they have “power”. However, it is important how one manages this power, if manages it, and manages it. Some experts emerge from the spectators…..The creative worker is very cautious. During their day, their brains are working even if their hands are not. They are always overwhelmed with the past, the present, with the inhuman. It’s well known, that all their works of art are created by the above mentioned polarities. And the work is unity itself, harmony. Nowadays a new reality is created by plenty of mediums, with the use of which a new  visuality is formed. …… The artist must be daring. It is also important that on their way what creative attitudes they are fond of. They can excite spectators through tests set up by themselves…… Since speed is part of everyday life, the creative worker must manage time proportions well. Painting cannot be too quick. It’s possible to reach the absolute limits, but I think the procedure is time-consuming. 21 July

The thought, in which I started to write about creative work, seems to have ceased. It is very important to fix that technical questions cannot be separated from their contents. The individual drives and vibrations must be diverted when approaching universal harmony. During work we mustn’t be influenced by anything that doesn’t help the universal realization. Our attention always points at the mood and the exact emotion, but I wouldn’t be that sure of the particular hint. As I have already written it, it’t is more complicated. Let’s take plants for example. If we silently watch their movements or stillness, immediately we get a personal vision, but we must balance it with our imagination so that the meaning of the plant is factual and suggests unity. This way using other colours we get an identical state and a new “photograph”. The image is created inside of us and in the camera at the same time, one is the device for the other.  Using devices is of low importance, but I use the camera many times for example. It is up to understanding relations what intensity and depth we reach in constant movement………….. / It is part of my experiment to experience different states to extremes. This behaviour contradicts my partical-philosophy, which has been with me from the beginning. However, the only way of my development is if I adapt to eternal theories./to be continued. 4 July

We must always remain accurate. Some find it easy, some find it difficult. I must be able to express a state with the most obvious means, and I must know how to select this.

It’s very difficult. It’s up to us what kind of artistic manifestation we choose…Due to some interactions of “nature” the individual possesses individual power.…………………………………………….. ……………………………………………………………………………… …………………………………………………………………………….. Blue eyes blue ears blue bodies blue dellllight Blue light blue mascot blue nails .. remain locked in darkness,-girls screaming from blue throats, laughing blue azure dots I will daub hair for Madonna from Orange juice.

………………………………………………………………………………. ……………………………………………………………………………….. ……………………………………………………………………………… ………. I don’t listen to sheer words when I show myself. Being wrapped in words, I break the hung over legs of glue jelly in my disguise. To get back that salty. ………………………………………………………………………………. ……………………………………………………………………………….. ………………………………………………………………………………. ……….. …- My intestines ache of apples Having been swollen for days. Empty panting, constant milk bar, Rotten milk teeth, Peach in winter. I’m being bathed in uncovered sea, Snotty freckle, my ear is trembling of its coming in. I must be grateful to death. The earth lets me go far The earth lets me go far The earth lets me go far The earth lets me go far…………………………………………………………………………………… …………………………………………………………………………………….. …………………………………………………………………………………. ———— Because we sleep on every uncertainty. ……… …………………………………………………………………………………… …………………………………………………………………………………. ………………………………………………………………………………… I started to go inside me, though I am afraid of my own fear and I long for home. But, and I want to tell you everything at once, But, Where are you?…………………………………………………………………………………. ……………………………………………………………………………………. 7 July

The doors must open from each other in every case, at the same time from different aspects. Mental situations must be created, in which these open doors remain open, while we can immediately bring the system itself to mind. It is important to bear in mind how we got from one to the other and so on. It’s ok if we get lost sometimes, but let’s admit it, it is good and easy to get lost, but the more we do this, the more difficult it is to get back. The timing, like when and how long we spend at the doors, well this is the other great problem. We must know ourselves. As a stage of a process we started to co- or anti-operate with our age when we were children, and updating started. Then being frightened of conformity, we became incomprehensible and senseless. And we had to comprehend that the spiral crosses with ellipses many times, that we arrive at nearly the same place during our inside stories. In addition, the artists must argue with their existence in society, as they are so isolated. But if we take into account that we cannot agree even in the most simple questions, what we think about “beauty”…

Unfortunately many people can’t or don’t want to get attracted to the new tendencies, but many people are such committed followers of progress, that they fail to notice value.

Csiszér Zsuzsi painter-worker, the page is constantly under construction …. patience ….” Excuses ….. All this inquired in the form of a high-ranked clause, whatever their commission was. All this everything would have been able to rule, dashing off the long concrete block, filling our power. As the thing that reliefs fear used to be great earlier too, and the two secretaries got around it screaming, getting into a sloping valley. —- Golden twig. – What are they staring at? – That day the the quarter of the hour that was despersing in his head broke into two, perhaps he knows about it? —– What is he talking about? – He was dripping his favourite memory out, he is being watched, an old man looks around him, looks above him, turns to be silent. So he is silent. Besides, all our information organs  mark the extra petrol tanks, he flees on a wee bit track, deals a blow streaming, when he turns and reaches the pocket of his jacket, and still sliding his hand… from the lady he is conversing with to a repulsive machine. He aimed at the door handle by the telephone, pushed the knitting-needle to the back of his head, …and fifty thousand needles turned up searching for the possibly hiding enemy…. The doorman fell asleep” cs. zs . 9 Aug

I admit that I record my experiences as visions, therefore my memory is gooood – selective. I mix names, I mix stories. I am not a racionalist, not logic, many times I am considered to be a sheer idiot, and they can think whatever they want. Consistently I let myself be under influence and ineffectively open a new page. I can be some kind. 28 September.